I just had a realization.
In my previous post, my attitude was all wrong. I had it backwards.
Ideally, our relationship with G-d should be one of pure love, one with no strings attached, not תלויה בדבר.
Although this seems like a lofty goal, which is almost unachievable, I actually think it’s closer than we think. (Eitan Katz – Ki Karov | Live in Jerusalem 2 | איתן כ״ץ – כי קרוב – YouTube)
Particularly when we go through difficult times, we can show up in a purer way. We become more sensitive to others. We remove layers of expectations and fears from inside of us (back to the onion). And as we go deeper and remove those layers, we can start to show up as we are. And really, there is no greater gift than that.